As I read through your words, i kept thinking of the fear you describe. People that meet me would have no idea that I live in fear of so many things. I am trying to work through my fears but it’s very hard. My father is terminally ill and I’m so afraid of losing his wisdom and presence in my life. I’m also unreasonably afraid of aging and what will happen to my body and my mind. Ugh! Those are only two of my many fears. I’m trying to be present with my fears and sit in the discomfort of my thoughts instead of staying in constant motion. I’m a work in progress:)
Debbie, thank you for sharing this. I feel you on this, so much! Fear is an interesting emotion and they can be difficult to deal with and understand. I went to a therapist last year to speak about my fear of dying. I don't know if it comes with age, was partly because I wasn't feeling good in my body, or something else. All I know, it was there and it became an almost obsessive thought pattern. Talking about it was helpful. There are practices to help with sitting with these type of emotions too. You are a work in progress and so are all of us. Knowing this is something you are working with is a big beautiful step. Keep it up! Sending you hugs!
I really found this idea of voice to be compelling. I can certainly identify times where my intuition was trying to communicate deep wisdom to me. In those situations, I often ignored or drowned it out until I hit a point of no return when reality hit and life simply couldn’t go on without major changes.
Since then I’ve tried to become more intentional about getting to know myself (hi, me! It’s me!) so that I recognize changes in my heart, head, and body and can honor what they are telling me.
As I read through your words, i kept thinking of the fear you describe. People that meet me would have no idea that I live in fear of so many things. I am trying to work through my fears but it’s very hard. My father is terminally ill and I’m so afraid of losing his wisdom and presence in my life. I’m also unreasonably afraid of aging and what will happen to my body and my mind. Ugh! Those are only two of my many fears. I’m trying to be present with my fears and sit in the discomfort of my thoughts instead of staying in constant motion. I’m a work in progress:)
Debbie, thank you for sharing this. I feel you on this, so much! Fear is an interesting emotion and they can be difficult to deal with and understand. I went to a therapist last year to speak about my fear of dying. I don't know if it comes with age, was partly because I wasn't feeling good in my body, or something else. All I know, it was there and it became an almost obsessive thought pattern. Talking about it was helpful. There are practices to help with sitting with these type of emotions too. You are a work in progress and so are all of us. Knowing this is something you are working with is a big beautiful step. Keep it up! Sending you hugs!
I really found this idea of voice to be compelling. I can certainly identify times where my intuition was trying to communicate deep wisdom to me. In those situations, I often ignored or drowned it out until I hit a point of no return when reality hit and life simply couldn’t go on without major changes.
Since then I’ve tried to become more intentional about getting to know myself (hi, me! It’s me!) so that I recognize changes in my heart, head, and body and can honor what they are telling me.
Kayleigh! I love the idea of being more intentional with getting to know yourself. Simply beautiful and such a gift.